Trouble

I wrote out a post before this, about a specific part of the one event that seems to have changed my life. I am not in a place where I can post it but I did write it and it did help me to feel better. I am still troubled by what has happened but I know I can move on. I will just need some help.

I love Cat Stevens, I am pretty sure that anyone who really knows me knows this fact about me. These are the lyrics of his song "Trouble" from the movie Harold and Maude. Which by the way is one of the most beautiful love stories ever filmed, it is everything that any love story needs two people find each other, in many ways in spite of what the rest of the world wants for both of them. It is a story about the fact that love is not found it is uncovered and unwrapped like a gift, and sometimes it is just what you need or want, sometimes not. Sometimes you lose it, and need to learn to move on with out this thing that seemed to help define you and make you and life better. 

"Trouble" 

Lyrics by Yosuf Islam (Cat Stevens) 

Trouble

Oh trouble set me free
I have seen your face
And it's too much too much for me

Trouble
Oh trouble can't you see
You're eating my heart away
And there's nothing much left of me

I've drunk your wine
You have made your world mine
So won't you be fair
So won't you be fair

I don't want no more of you
So won't you be kind to me
Just let me go where
I'll have to go there

Trouble
Oh trouble move away
I have seen your face
and it's too much for me today

Trouble
Oh trouble can't you see
You have made me a wreck
Now won't you leave me in my misery

I've seen your eyes
and I can see death's disguise
Hangin' on me
Hangin' on me

I'm beat, I'm torn
Shattered and tossed and worn
Too shocking to see
Too shocking to see

Trouble
Oh trouble move from me
I have paid my debt
Now won't you leave me in my misery

Trouble
Oh trouble please be kind
I don't want no fight
And I haven't got a lot of time